Memories of Peanut
June 6, 2002
Dear Loving Touch Family,
April 23rd was the one-year mark of Peanut's passing.
I have had this letter written in my head for over a year now and I
cannot explain why I never put it on paper until now. I am very embarrassed
by it's untimeliness but when I mentioned it to a friend, he said, "It
is never too late to do the right thing." So here it is. I just hope
that everyone I am addressing is still part of the Loving Touch family.
My parents and I coped pretty well with Peanut's death.
Partly because we knew a couple of months in advance that we were going
to lose him and partly because of all the love and support that we were
receiving from Loving Touch. I think I it was harder on my parents because
Peanut lived with them.
Their routines changed greatly. No more getting up 15
minutes early to take him out for his walk and to feed him. No one to
greet you at the door when you arrive home. Guilt at having complained
about needing to go straight home after work to let him out. Two months
passed, they were still checking under their recliner before lowering
the footrests to make sure Peanut was not underneath them.
For me, the oddest thing was going to their house and
sitting on the sofa. Every visit to their house was spent on the floor
petting, playing and loving Peanut. I miss his deliberate kisses, his
brown eyes, petting his soft fur, the way he smelled, the weight of
his body in my lap and the comfort of his presence. But I take solace
in the fact that he lived 11 years.
In no particular order, I would like to thank each of
you for the following:
Jennifer and Rebecca- for always greeting
us with a smile and for letting me talk your heads off.
Kat and Andrea- for being so gentle and reassuring
when administering Peanut's treatments.
Justin- for all your hugs and for the great laugh
about the calming herbal drink - I informed you that I couldn't get
Peanut to drink it and you informed me that it wasn't for Peanut..it
was for me!!
Dr. Pat- for being straight forward and for the
suggestion to take lots of photographs of Peanut.
Dr. Hyatt- for your gentle but strong nature and
for the tears that rolled down your cheeks.
Margie- for just being Margie.. thank you for your
friendship, for being Peanut's girlfriend, for helping me feel good
about my choices regarding Peanut's welfare, for always being happy
to see us and for being there in the end.
Dr. Michelle- for dedicating your life to the wellbeing
of our pets.. You are truly a gift from God. By helping our pets, you
help us humans too. You are the most brilliant woman I have ever met
and my life has been forever impacted by Loving Touch and its philosophies,
practices and the people who employ them.
Sincerely,
Becky J.